raingirl

(to balance complaint)

I'm never so happy as when my children are happy. Daughter just came back from Comic-Con. She has wanted to go for years and this year finally could save up money and make the trip. She is ecstatic. She got to meet Karen and Matt - she spoke to them, she got their autograph, Matt wished her well in her life - ahhh. (Dr. Who people - for those who don't know.)

Son had successful day at his summer camp. This is wonderful, he's happy, I'm happy. Each time he has a success, the closer he comes to knowing he can be successful. One step at a time.

my son's school has started up again. i'm feeling sad that summer is over, though happy to reconnect with some of the school people. melancholy with a touch of energy from all those students and advisors (no teachers at his school) starting fresh. i'll try to put myself into the flow and contribute with a smile.

i've been thinking about that group of people who started laughing together. i guess it's grown world wide, but i've never come across any of them. [i've been doing a shit eating grin on my face for a full minute most mornings with the same concept in mind but a solo act. i think it really helps. they (those oh so wise ones) say that the body responds to that action of smiling positively and that it promotes general well being mentally and physically. it's easier than putting myself out there with other people to do a silly act.] it all makes me think of the time i was at summer camp in 7th or 8th grade. we had a cabin full of girls on a ranch in eastern oregon. one night when we were playing cards, i think, we got the giggles and then full out laughter. we couldn't stop. things would settle down a little, and then someone would look at someone else and the out loud big laughs would start again all the way around. i remember leaving the cabin, standing just outside the door to try and catch my breath, but as soon as i would re-enter the cabin i wouldn't be able to keep from bursting out laughing again. we were delightfully exhausted when we decided we just had to turn the lights out and go to bed - the laughs faded out slowly. i love that memory.

i know people now who laugh with such ease. i live with a man who loves to make people laugh, but somehow, i don't give out that full laugh very much - although i do it when the way he is is just too silly. maybe i should find a laugh group and just get the giggles going again, like stretching a muscle or practice makes perfect or some such thing.

I went to my very first New Year's Eve Party. I was very grown up (except that I didn't drink, because I don't) and had a good time and even managed to stay up until midnight. I'm so proud.

code, i have a code - ad i haf to babysit a one dear ode tomorrow fo six hours. i deed chicken soup.

I wish posting pages were more interesting - and that my computer had a new battery so it could be truly a laptop again.

my understanding was that two kittens were supposed to occupy each other and leave your stuff more alone. i'm finding that now there's just twice the fluff balls attacking my stuff. well, at least they're cute.